That's how it is. Same shit different day.

I'm going to be be positive about my health, my PhD, and the rest of my life and I am determined to get better because God loves me, my family loves me, my close friends love me and he loves me. Thank you for making me realize the important things in life. There's nothing else that matters more than my trust and faith in You.

I have sore feet.

Okay. We were good friends. We used to talk a lot, hang out a lot and yes, we've been there for each other too. So I messaged him a few times, most of the times when he did reply, it was sort of distant and short. Fair enough, he was busy but honestly, if we were such good friends, and if he valued my friendship, the road should go both ways. That means, both parties should try and keep in touch... but since he didn't seem keen on that, I decided to let the friendship slide. Shit happens, I just have to move on.

So after months and months of not speaking, he messages me yesterday and yes, I was civil:

Him: "Hello."
Me: "Hey."
Him: "How are you?"
Me: "I'm good, busy with studies, how are you?"
Him: "I'm good, thank you. I'm at work now heh. Mom arrives tomorrow. She's on the new A-380."
Me: "Busy, busy. Heh, that's awesome."
Him: "Damn lucky if you ask me! Oooo, did I tell you I made a gf in SG?"
Me: "Haha, you made one?"

(To me, the word 'made' didn't seem right... 'met', 'hooked up with', 'got together' was more appropriate. SG = Singapore, where I was born.)

Him: "Not made, I have a gf from there now. Well, she's not my gf, she's my fiancee."
Me: "Oh, congrats!"
Him: "Today is our two month anniversary lol and it's been long distance for five and a bit weeks... six weeks."

Me: "So you guys been dating for two months?"
Him: "Uh huh."
Me: "And you proposed?"
Him: "Hehe, um... after how many days?"
Me: "Did ya know her before?"
Him: "From 22nd Jan... til Feb 6/7. Umm, I knew her since Dec 05 on Friendster... then never spoke until 1 week before I met her. Then I met her on the 17th."

Me: "Ahhh, congrats all the same."
Him: "And again on 20, 21 and 22. Then most days until my holiday finished haha. Mum is still in shock."

Me: "Cool, cool. When's the wedding?"
Him: "Supposedly... June... but maybe later depends if we can arrange or not in time."
Me: "That's great."
Him: "Ah... brb... gotta do a couple of things... clean a coffee machine being one!!"

So... WTF man? Why was he telling me like I gave a rat's ass on his personal life after dissing me as a friend? Dude, you gotta come up with more than that. So you stop talking to me, get a gf and then decide to speak to me again? JUST TO TELL ME THAT? WTF? Well, you know what? Whatever. I hope you guys are happy and stuff, but I'm not really interested in your 2 month relationship turned marriage material thing so in future, keep all personal things to yourself. And just FYI, I gave up on the friendship months ago.

If you reckon you can figure this out for me... let me know. Coz I'm still bewildered and really disappointed in someone I used to call a friend. On the upside, I know who my real friends are and those who aren't.

I received a postgraduate student award top-up for my scholarship and I want to acknowledge that it is God's blessing and favour, and not on my own strength. Sometimes I really feel so undeserving of the great things God has placed in my life.

I hope you deviants are doing well. I haven't been on here much and probably won't be on here as much in the future either. Study is taking up a lot of my energy, even to write creatively. However, I'm glad to see so many of you still updating and it's great. Hope you all have a wonderful long weekend.